Some of you know I have a large, spread-out family where, due to geography and economics, we see each other once per decade if we are really lucky. My six siblings, two parents, and 14 nieces and nephews and I last got together in 2004. Before that it was 1990.

I keep in touch with everyone mainly through social media. And phoning. (Although some are not easy to phone as they have no landlines, or enough signal to call on What’s App. Or, in my mum’s case, she doesn’t do SM, mobile phone, or email.)

I realised yesterday that one of my nieces in Auckland, New Zealand, was on the verge of suicide on Easter Monday. About to head out (as she calls it), she posted this on Facebook after months of avoiding all social media.

Dear friends.
Have had one of the worst months of my life and that’s saying a lot. Have had no work and had to have my best friend West put to sleep after 13 years together. If I don’t come up with roughly $3000 they are going to start eviction proceedings and then I won’t have a home. I don’t know how to make a miracle, I don’t feel very magical anymore, I’m exhausted and I don’t know what to do. I have tried every avenue to no avail. I would like to ask if you have a spare one dollar if you might buy my song. It’s not an unpleasant song and you can pay more if you want to. It would mean everything to me. I have animals and Auckland is a dangerous city to be homeless in right now. Especially if you’re evicted because that means no references as well. I’m very lucky to have a place that allows animals and I’ve been here for almost five years and if I have to lose another thing I’m going to fall apart. Thank you so much if you can spare a dollar, and if you can’t, I understand but could you possibly share this post with your social network? Maybe you have friends who would want to buy a song. It’s actually about West. I miss him too much. I want to say thank you everyone, for being my friend, and I’m sorry if I haven’t spoken to you, this is why. I’m so depressed and freaked out, I can’t talk to people when I’m this depressed, I’m really sorry, it’s nothing personal, I love all of you and I’m grateful for every friend I have. Thank you.

She’s had so much love and dollars sent to her that it’s restored her hope. She completed another song, Dahlia, to thank people for what they’ve done. 

Hi. Yesterday was going to be the worst day and instead, it turned into the best day since I can’t remember when. Thanks to all of you who heard my last and only cry for help and responded like a flock of angels and I don’t really know how to thank you for helping me and lifting me up when I desperately needed it so I made another song and I just want to give this one to everyone and it’s free so please have it as thanks from me. If you want to know the truth it was my suicide song but it wouldn’t upload on Tues night when I was planning to head out. I only posted on Facebook that night because I had nothing left to lose. You don’t really care about pride when you’re not planning to be here anymore. It’s funny how miracles happen. I can’t quite believe almost two-thirds of the money has been raised in the past two days but I’m starting to regain my faith not only in the universe but in the endless capacity of human beings to change the dark to light when we link hands. Collectively we are strong. Individually it is much harder to maintain strength. I hope this empowers you all and makes you feel like change can come and it will and the human race is not doomed if we choose it. Magic happens. This makes me think I can achieve my goals of making a people and animal sanctuary, that maybe it’s actually easy when you don’t try to do everything by yourself…
I really love you all and I want to thank you from the bottom of my beating heart. You saved my life. My home is still precarious but my life is safe. I believe in miracles now.
Thank you.

She has until Monday to raise the last 1/3rd of the rent she owes. Please take a listen and consider chipping in. This has saved Kina’s life. I think these two songs are beautiful. And this shows the good side of SM.


3 thoughts on “A Quick Story about a Miracle

  1. Wow. How big is your mailing list??!! Wonderful. Although does ‘regular help, minuscule pension’ make me sound a bit bratlike..? šŸ˜¬šŸ¤” hehe. Oh well… It’s sent now and amazing.

    Who knows what will come of this. X

    Ps. What has astounded me about this experience is that everyone has just acted from their heart. And normally people just get so wrapped up in their everyday that they forget about their hearts and what amazing people they really are, deep down and this has just mobilised people’s feelings and everyone’s so full of love at the moment and I guess I’m happy that I could help with that in such a strange way. I don’t know, it’s been a really weird couple of days. I’m doing nothing but thanking people. Which is an amazing experience in itself. Thank you for doing this.

    Kina Sai photos, words, music


    1. Oh should I change it?? I just meant to say that we have also sent what we could so people don’t think family members are heartless ogres. Like, cos mum couldn’t just cut a whopping cheque…. you know? Sometimes people assume family can help First especially when anyone feels suicidal. When really I didn’t know you felt that until yesterday.

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